StRAiGHt ThrU My HEaRt

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FiNaLLy BAcK @ SerDaNG

afta 11 days of leave... i'm back to face my tones of work dat waiting on my desk... ahaks..... proposal to be finish and report to be update... and for the most reason to be back to see all the ofismate and frens dat miss me... ahaks... do they missed me.... hurm wat to loose to say some1 out there is missing me... huhuhuhu...... i miss my desk and my work.... miss my family just afta i rearch my house just now.... huhuhuhu.... i really love them and i hope to get a rite man to be love and to love to.....

LosIng A FreN.....

Few days ago my dearest younger sis got a news from her frenz about one of her 'silat' fren whom met with accident at the south china sea at sabah..... 28 passenger from kudat to pulau banggi were drown due to the heavy rain and strong wave. And her frenz was one of the one that still missing till today.... Suddenly when i looked into my sis face i remembered the memories of me losing my frenz when i was in form 1 and 2.... it was hard and tears came all the way.... i remembered how they talked to me before they met the accident... the hardest part was when i became the last person to talk and be with them before they passed away..... Al-Fatihah to all the person whom lost they family due to the accident.....

"waT's WrOng WiF U My DeAreSt FwEnz?"

i've few quality fwenz... i didn't mean not to be fwenz wif people but somehow it is hard 4 me toget a long wif people coz people tense to judge me wrongly.... n for that i'll try not to be too close to someone that i call a fwen.... lately i just get a feeling dat i might be doing something dat make someone or somebody feels bad about me?? i just keep asking myself wat i've done wrong?? coz i know dat i'm not in school year anymore... it is working time... yet i just felt dat something wrong somewhere but they seems to avoiding me.... ya i just can say this may be people just wanna keep their distance... but simply wanna say this 'if i'm doing sumting wrong and hurting u, just inform it to me coz i think if u just keep quiet i won't ever notice wats' wrong wif u'.... i luv my fwens as i never listened to gossip coz i believe in my fwenz... n i'm hoping dat they feel the same way as i'm... hopefully ALLAH will listen to my prayer and make my fwens realize that i never ever wanna hurt their feeling....

I rEaLLy MisS HeR.....

it happened yesterday... and now i miss her so much.... the only one whom alwez there 4 me.... she love me and alwez there.... i just can't accept this that she is not around anymore.... her voice, her charm makes me feel warm.... its' raining outsides and i scared that she might get cold or scared of the darkness..... i just wonder where is she and what she's doing rite now??? i miss her so much.... stockins where r u??? please come back.... i miss u so much................ huhuhuhuhu ' rindunyer kat stockins'.......

'HidUp TidAk SeIndAh KatA PuJanGGa'

may be u think dat i'm back to write in malays huh... well not really just the title is very significant tu wat i wanna write for today story... well i always wanna think positive n motivated myself to be positive but lately things are not in the rite path for me.... well kinda feeling weird wif wat happen lately but i still felt like i need to be positive as there is still a lot of fwenz dat will be there 4 me... sum how today was not my lucky day... being able to finish my proposal still not the happiest thing that happened as there is still a slightly prob wif sum1... it just hit me at my head dat 'hidup x seindah kata pujangga' well my life still in a gloomy days.... may be wif the help of sum equation it will be back to the rite path.... well i still need some distribution to help me get to normal distribution.... in getting there need to do find moment wif the help of expected value and it variance... ahaks.... maybe there is sumhow i need to do sum analysis so dat every differential or integration are perfect..... huhuhuhu just wonder how cud i get this kind of syntax error again.....

My SwEeT N NoTty NepHeW

when i have a lot of problems i usually remember them.... my niece and nephews.... well watching they grow makes me wanna have my own child but yet lum masa wei.... ahaks... need to find the rite person huh to be the one... ahaks again... i love kids may be that is why i don't mind to baby sit my nephews and niece when my sis asked me to...surely i wanna be the one whom always be there for them although they have their parents' to support them yet i really lobe to be there for them....

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